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| Shaun and Alec before their trip to California. |
I am ANGRY. People can say all they want regarding when “God” takes someone he has “something great” for them planned. Tell that to the parents, relatives, and friends who have lost someone at a young age. How could this “something great” be better when they have yet to start their life? Maybe these young people had something great to share with us in the living world. However, we will never know.
Yet another member of the Class of 2010 has passed. Yet again, it is a friend of Shaun’s. Yet AGAIN I am worried about Shaun and how he will handle this. I also worry about how his friend’s will handle this. When I asked Shaun how he was, of course his answer was “I’m ok. I’ve dealt with this before. What is going to suck is the wake/funeral and watching everybody else.” As an adult it is hard to deal with, but having to deal with it as teenagers? I can’t even grasp this.
I don’t like to talk religion. I used to think we would all end up in this happy spot called Heaven, but now I am not so sure. The Catholics use scare tactics. I was taught, at a young age, the devil is on one shoulder and an angel was on the other. If I took a cookie, the devil made me do it and I had black marks on my soul. Scary stuff for a 5-year old. Shaun hit it on the head; the Catholics are trained, like a lamb, at a young age. He had said this regarding my nieces, “The twins don’t have a chance to even think for themselves because they are being brainwashed.” I agree. Every week it is the same routine. If you want to talk about worshipping idols? The Catholic religion has plenty of them. Then there is the whole “Mary was a whore” issue. But we won’t go into that. The Catholic religion left a bad taste in my mouth when my nieces were going to be baptized. The good old Catholic religion wanted to see how much money we donated BEFORE they would “sign off” that we would make good godparents. Really? So I guess I could be this awful person, but if I handed you enough money, Catholic church, you would be okay with this. See ya.
Is there a higher power out there? Possibly. But please don’t shove things down my throat about religion. I have my own thoughts and will not shove them down your throat. I don’t like to hear “God is good.” My family and friends are good. Right now, taking a son from his mother is not good. They say a parent should never have to bury their child. Well, God, we don’t have the luxury of having our sons or daughters resurrected.
My husband lost his brother, Dan at a young age. My husband, I truly believe, has never dealt with this. Imagine carrying your brother home from a place you used to hang out as kids. Imagine this…being arrested because people thought you did something to your own brother. Where was God? Was he watching over my husband? Watching him while my husband had to sit in a jail cell until he was cleared, maybe. Dan did leave behind my nephew, Tom, who is a wonderful, intelligent young man. I guess if you can say “great things were planned,” my nephew is a success.
So as I sit here and try to digest what happened to this young man…who am I kidding? I can’t digest this. All I can do is be here for Shaun and any of his friends who stop by. When their friend Brandon passed away, I was hit with the question, “Why?” Or this heart wrenching statement said to me by a 16-year old, “We are doomed. Our class is doomed.” What does God say to this?
If I have ticked you off, I can’t say I apologize. I am still a good person and have beliefs. I take what you say into consideration, as well. I would give the shirt off my back to help anyone. For the parents of Alec McKinney, my thoughts are with you. Gone too soon.
"Gone Too Soon"
By: Michael Jackson
Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon
