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| Shaun and Alec before their trip to California. |
I am ANGRY. People can say all they want regarding when “God” takes someone he has “something great” for them planned. Tell that to the parents, relatives, and friends who have lost someone at a young age. How could this “something great” be better when they have yet to start their life? Maybe these young people had something great to share with us in the living world. However, we will never know.
Yet another member of the Class of 2010 has passed. Yet again, it is a friend of Shaun’s. Yet AGAIN I am worried about Shaun and how he will handle this. I also worry about how his friend’s will handle this. When I asked Shaun how he was, of course his answer was “I’m ok. I’ve dealt with this before. What is going to suck is the wake/funeral and watching everybody else.” As an adult it is hard to deal with, but having to deal with it as teenagers? I can’t even grasp this.
I don’t like to talk religion. I used to think we would all end up in this happy spot called Heaven, but now I am not so sure. The Catholics use scare tactics. I was taught, at a young age, the devil is on one shoulder and an angel was on the other. If I took a cookie, the devil made me do it and I had black marks on my soul. Scary stuff for a 5-year old. Shaun hit it on the head; the Catholics are trained, like a lamb, at a young age. He had said this regarding my nieces, “The twins don’t have a chance to even think for themselves because they are being brainwashed.” I agree. Every week it is the same routine. If you want to talk about worshipping idols? The Catholic religion has plenty of them. Then there is the whole “Mary was a whore” issue. But we won’t go into that. The Catholic religion left a bad taste in my mouth when my nieces were going to be baptized. The good old Catholic religion wanted to see how much money we donated BEFORE they would “sign off” that we would make good godparents. Really? So I guess I could be this awful person, but if I handed you enough money, Catholic church, you would be okay with this. See ya.
Is there a higher power out there? Possibly. But please don’t shove things down my throat about religion. I have my own thoughts and will not shove them down your throat. I don’t like to hear “God is good.” My family and friends are good. Right now, taking a son from his mother is not good. They say a parent should never have to bury their child. Well, God, we don’t have the luxury of having our sons or daughters resurrected.
My husband lost his brother, Dan at a young age. My husband, I truly believe, has never dealt with this. Imagine carrying your brother home from a place you used to hang out as kids. Imagine this…being arrested because people thought you did something to your own brother. Where was God? Was he watching over my husband? Watching him while my husband had to sit in a jail cell until he was cleared, maybe. Dan did leave behind my nephew, Tom, who is a wonderful, intelligent young man. I guess if you can say “great things were planned,” my nephew is a success.
So as I sit here and try to digest what happened to this young man…who am I kidding? I can’t digest this. All I can do is be here for Shaun and any of his friends who stop by. When their friend Brandon passed away, I was hit with the question, “Why?” Or this heart wrenching statement said to me by a 16-year old, “We are doomed. Our class is doomed.” What does God say to this?
If I have ticked you off, I can’t say I apologize. I am still a good person and have beliefs. I take what you say into consideration, as well. I would give the shirt off my back to help anyone. For the parents of Alec McKinney, my thoughts are with you. Gone too soon.
"Gone Too Soon"
By: Michael Jackson
Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Comet
Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon
Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon
Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon
Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon
Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon
Gone Too Soon
It's ok to be angry at God. Respectively throw all of it right at God's feet. Don't hold on or keep any of it.
ReplyDeleteNothing wrong with being angry with God and questioning why he does the things he does. But when we see the birth of a child or hear about a person trapped after an earthquake only to be found three weeks later alive, it restores my faith not only in people but in God too. I have never been much for church as an adult because I too have seen how mans law effects religion and how it has turned into a business.That being said I do believe in god but sometimes I shake my head in disbelief as I am certain he does when he looks at me. I dump my problems at his feet and pray for the wisdom to understand why he does what he does.
ReplyDeleteGod, religion, it is all personal beliefs and I do not think anyone has a right to force it on others. But what a frightening scary concept to think there is not a heaven or God. Life is not meant to be easy. Life is full of bad things happening to good people. But more than that it is full of wonderful miraculous things happening each day that sometimes we overlook. Love the people in your life. Enjoy the time we have. Console eachother when terrible things happen. Don't ask why...just live a life to be proud of, it is the best you can do here on earth.
ReplyDeleteKathy, everything you said here is exactly how I feel. I too worry about my son, Kyle, and how he'll handle another person in his life dying...but especially such a close/good friend who is gone too soon. It's just sad to think of all the deaths they've had to deal with already. It's just wrong! And the last thing anyone wants to hear are useless platitudes about God and being in a better place. What better place is there than with your family and friends? The one thing I'm grateful for is that Kyle, Shaun and the rest of their friends have each other during these times. Sure, as their parents, we are there for them to talk to and help however we can. But Kyle has had to deal with more death than I did at that age (or even at the age I'm at now), so I can't necessarily relate the same way. So I'm glad these kids have each other and I know they'll be there to help each other get thru this...once again. RIP Alec!
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